Redefining purpose

It has been a while since I last posted, mainly because of moving into the realms of the self employed and all that such a thing involves. Plus I have a certain wedding to help sort out, so it fair to say that my Druidry has taken somewhat a backseat in my life of late.

My work has gone far better than I thought it would with last month being my best month to date and things looking very positive at the minute. I am also looking forward to getting married to Pauline in the summer (hence having to help sort out a wedding). I continue to enjoy photography and my better than expected work results have allowed me to upgrade my camera quicker than I had tentatively planned for.

However, yesterday Druidry re-entered my life again (not that it had left it, just that it has now re-emerged more towards the “front” again).

Like a lot of people, I have felt the despair with the current crop of (in my opinion, manufactured) conflicts playing out at this time. With me running the facebook page for the TDN Peace ritual , I am seeing increasing numbers of people interacting with our small ritual which they are finding compatible with their own morality. The ritual was worded to be as inclusive as possible and it is good to see that it seems to be achieving that objective with currently over 1100 people having expressed an interest in, or committing to, performing it regularly.

I think like most people of my generation, I have considered it to be appropriate to keep myself updated with the news. Since 1991, that has been almost exclusively through TV news (and mostly the BBC) having stopped buying “newspapers” in that year (because I considered that descriptor to be a breach of the trades description act! ). But the reporting of the conflicts of the world today now appears to me to be more an exercise of introducing fear and distraction into the population than actually reporting on the facts.

Any news program today consists of 95% bad news followed by a “light” article to lift the mood at the end. And I now believe that the media news outlets are now no more than the psychological tools of the governments and arms manufacturers. For example, did anyone else spot that the banking ethics enquiry had been scrapped on December 31? (which suggests that the tactic of it being a “good day to bury bad news” is still alive and well).

So our self-imposed responsibility of keeping ourselves up to date with the “news” is an ideal tool by which to deflect and distract the masses as to the reality of the situation. I have been as guilty as anyone else in getting involved in online discussions about situations I could not possibly have any control or influence in, which is what the purpose of 24 hour news channels is, in my opinion. They swamp people with “facts” so that people end up talking about the side issues and not the main issues. Social media gives people the “space to voice their opinion” and so as people continue to argue an debate about it, the authorities and their corporate pals get on with creating profit from conflict. Distraction techniques.

So I have decided to reduce my involvement in such things (I will still continue to do what I consider to be “right” in my dealings with people in the “real” world, but the online discussions about current affairs will reduce significantly). I now view news programs to just be distraction techniques for the authorities.

I cannot influence things that I “see” on news programs so I have come to the realisation that as a Druid, I should be concerning myself more with that which I can influence and interact with. And as an animist Druid, that would be the Land.

One of the things that made me doubtful about whether I would be a Druid many years ago was the assertion that the classical Druids were “intercessors between people and their Gods”. The classical definition of this was that the Druids performed the same function as the later priests / imams/ insert religious title of your choice. But I have come to realise that definition maybe one that was done just used to cater for the understanding of a later monotheistic readership.

I know of a lot of Druids who would not wish to define themselves by such terms and yesterday, a very clear “message” came through to me that such a definition was not correct.

All humans come into this world with the ability to create change. Indeed, in my experience, change is the only constant in this world. Every human is capable of creating some change on this physical Earth though some, through circumstance or cultural controls, choose or feel obliged to minimise that ability. But part of the message I got yesterday, was that it is important to realise that every human has the ability to create change and if we realise that, we can take back some of the power lost through the dis-empowering media news techniques. And so I decided that I will change the areas where I choose to try to foster this change with my own creative energy.

Too much of my creative energy has been directed to certain sections of the virtual and cultural worlds that I have inhabited of late, it is time to focus on the land more, where that creative energy can have some actual positive effect. My focus now will be to spend more of that creative energy in and with the land and not with / on the human communities, who will continue on with or without me.

The “intercessors” role has now been redefined for me, not as an intermediary between people and Gods, but as an instigator for change working with the land, for the benefit of the land and all the entities that use and communicate with and through the land. My Druid role therefore, has been moved away from the “priest” type of role (which to be perfectly honest, is a role I have had difficulty with as far as Druidry is concerned) and more an instigator for positive change with the land.

Yesterday I started that role by creating my own ritual and leaving an offering with the intention of bringing some positive change for the land that I was standing on at that time. That particular piece of land, as it turned out, is speculated to be the site of an early battle between the Britons of Strathclyde and the more Northerly Picts who it was claimed were trying to invade. The little known Battle of Ardunnion.

The fact that I felt compelled to perform this ritual and make my offering at the site of early human conflict is also significant. I felt that I was being instructed that as a self defined land Druid, performing this at a site of previous human conflict was now what was needed from me and thus how I can, as a Druid, now create change in both the physical and spiritual realms. My role as a Druid would be to create change in areas that still have some negative human influence through previous conflicts.  I can help reduce some of the negative human influence still present in those areas by performing my own Druid rituals and offerings. I can see me visiting many areas of previous conflict with the same intentions over the coming years.

I am not going to go into detail about the ritual I created, too much conflict has been caused by people claiming prescriptive actions have to be “authorised” for them to work. A position the major religions have been quite at ease to foster as it forms part of their “power” base.

I would expect anyone who reads this to have their own ideas as to how they could create their own ritual / offerings and as such, I would encourage you to go out and devise your own type of ritual.

Another part of the message I got through yesterday was that many of the classical Druids may not have held the role that was defined by the early writings that used the frameworks of the later monotheistic religious modelling.  For many, the Druid role may have been more about interacting with the land as a human spiritual instigator for the good of the land, reducing previous human influence, as opposed to them being like the later priestly monotheistic type of role concerned mainly with the benefit of the human populations.

I appreciate, for some Druids, the “priestly” type of role is indeed their calling. But I was also left in no doubt that there was definately a section within classical Druidry (and therefore should be within modern Druidry) that may be better served concentrating in improving the “lot” of the land as opposed to the “lot” of humanity. And this can be done by regular rituals and offerings with the land that concentrates on benefiting the land and not on any fortuitous or contrived side effect of benefiting humanity.

There is no “right” way to do this as such. Everyone must think of appropriate ways to fulfill this using their own morality and ethics but by there being no standardised way of doing this, I was informed, means the effects will be “stronger”, for want of a better word, because of this increased diversity of rituals through using non-standardised models.

I realise that for some reading this, this may not be “news” and that their path may have had them on a similar type of role for maybe years. I am also aware that a lot of people who have worked through the OBOD and BDO courses have come to a similar conclusion. But I can only relate this as and when I experience these things for myself and because I have not done any of the OBOD or BDO course work, the fact that I have arrived at a similar conclusion through an entirely different methodology and set of experiences, certainly for me, adds weight to the idea that what I experienced yesterday is “true”. And as such, even if it is only for my own benefit, I have felt compelled to pen this today.









……..  is a relatively small word. According the Oxford dictionary it can be defined as “ A moment of sudden and great revelation or realization. “. It’s not a word to be thrown around lightly. I think it’s probably fair to state that most people will have experienced something like this at various times throughout their lives (if they are lucky). I have had many “little” ones, when pieces of the jigsaw suddenly were revealed for what they were to me and then fitted better into the bigger picture.

But I have never had a “big” one. Until now. And I’m changed because of it.

I’ve been writing on this blog for just over three years now and have manged to “pen” something in most months since starting this blog from another one I did (which ran also for about three years). So that’s probably over six years that I’ve been engaging in this sort of stuff. Initially, my “style” was probably more like an academic style, citing references and trying to come to conclusions but that changed over the years and I’m probably now writing in the most “personal” style I have ever written. But I’m not a writer and I have no ambitions to be one, my work with blogs has, to an extent, left me feeling that at worst, my writing represents nothing better than “naval gazing”. I have seen how other people that I have respect for (and still do) have had various trials and tribulations engaging in their passion for writing and the tolls it can extract (take a bow Nimue Brown et al).

But it’s not a passion with me, I’m better “face to face”. So I’ll be drastically cutting back on what I write. At the minute I’d probably estimate it may only be twice a year, but it may not even be that. That is because the direction of my life has changed. I’m no longer full time employed, having taken voluntary redundancy I have now entered the realms of the self employed and being a heating engineer, my “busy” period is fast approaching. And being that busy doesn’t lend itself to clear thought or good self expression in my experience.

But that isn’t my epiphany.

I’ve been “in” the pagan scene for over twenty years now. I was initially attracted to Druidry because of a small introductory book borrowed from my local library which was penned by Emma Restall Orr. It was the first pagan literature that I connected with and I was left thinking “Yes, I’ve found something that talks to my soul here”  Because of that book, I brought my very first PC (running the then “new” windows 98) to be able to find out more and possibly connect with like minded individuals. And shortly after that (I think it was at the end of 2000) I found and joined The Druid Network.

After then, I read up everything I could get hold of (in both the virtual world and the real one) and there came a time when the lack of “facts” surrounding the classical Druids meant I “left” Druidry and I engaged with the “reconstructionist” type of engagement. But I have been over this stuff before and written about it so I’m not going to carry on with the chronological order of my experience with Druidry.

My experiences of the ” other world” have been in what I now come to understand as being in an animistic framework. People have relationships with deities (including my own Pauline) and I have never doubted the existence of these beings, but apart from three isolated instances, I have not been a party to this type of interaction. My own interactions have been with the “other than human communities”.

I’m not trying to qualify these types of experiences or place them into some sort of hierarchical structure, that stupid game is one other religions have been engaging in for thousands of years to the cost of millions of lives. But like a lot of people, I have been on a lifelong “mission” to better understand, and therefore better engage, in spiritual relationships. And I’m at a stage where I can state I’m reasonably happy all that time hasn’t been wasted.

But that isn’t my epiphany.

My spiritual relationships are based upon interactions with numerous “voices” (which sounds like a good case study for a psychology degree). They do not come through as a distinct single voice, such as one may think a singular deity would use when engaging. As time has gone on, these “voices” are now not so much verbal communications as “feelings” which I have come to understand as being defined today as clairsentience. I don’t so much hear as feel (though the communications do come through as “worded” to me after the experience). I work with communities of “other than humans”.

Last week, I received this book after reading a book review of it. It’s interest to me, if I have made myself clear with the last couple of paragraphs, should be obvious. It’s a very “easy” style of book to read, more like an overview as opposed to a scientific and referenced book which I understand has led some to question its validity (typical of some attitudes today, if it doesn’t fit into the neatly shaped parameters they work with, it doesn’t count). But to me, it’s been an epiphany.

I’m not going to do a detailed review of it but just point out some things which have led me to make my statement about it being an epiphany for me (to some people, this may not seem to be a “big” thing, but to me, it was like someone had finally provided me with the glue to connect everything I had experienced over my fifty something years of physical existence).

First, the author makes us aware that around 97% of the entire bio-mass of the Earth is plant. Animals represent just 0.3% and that is “every animal including all of humanity at this time”. I have often rejected the human-centric attitude of modern western society but with a fact like that, it could be argued that there is an animal-centric attitude. This is important because in the book, the author outlines why he thinks that our definition of life and intelligence has been far too narrow. And I find his reasoning to be compelling.

Next, using the commonly held understanding of how the senses we have define our understanding of what we consider to be both intelligent and sentient, he uses some of the latest information to show how plants do not only possess the five senses animals do, but at least ten others as well. He uses the definition of intelligence as “the ability to problem solve” and goes on to show that plants not only are capable of such a thing, but in some cases, are far more evolved than animals are.

But the main piece which led me to make my statement of epiphany was in how the author went on to demonstrate that life doesn’t just exist in specialist organ biological form that animals possess (for example, the common assumption that for “intelligence to be evident” there has to be a brain to control it) but is present in greater numbers in a collective modular form, which is what he is proposing is the form of intelligence plants use. It’s a progression of the “super swarm ” theory and is one that for me now fits in so well with my experiences.

This post is long enough without me expanding on what I have just written about but if you are interested and can beg, borrow or buy the book, I would recommend it. It may not be an epiphany for you, but it will certainly change how you think about life on the physical plain and our definition of it.



Druidry & Separation

The over-riding prerogative in the western world today appears to be tending to the needs of our economy. Everything else is relegated to the role of passive objectivity, resources for the exclusive use of the Economy. If the economy fails, we all fail is the not-so-subtle subtitle carried forward every day by the media, the Government and the corporations. And how do you keep people subservient to the needs of the economy? Drip feed a constant barrage of information all concentrating on the negative aspects of “what if world”.

“What if such and such does so and so to the economy?” “What if profits drop to the unacceptable level of less than multi-billions?” “What if productivity drops to less than 100% per operative?” and yet, to paraphrase the song “There’s always the money for a war, but never enough for the poor”.

One of the first principles most people walking the Druid path discover is the interconnected-ness of the natural world. Nothing is truly independent from it’s environment. Yet the economy is based exclusively on that very premise. It is independent from the passive world because it suits the “main players” to objectivise the natural world from a co-operative of thinking, feeling beings to a resource. Have you noticed that what used to be referred to as the “Personnel depts” of corporations are now referred to as “Human resources”. It’s actually a paradigm shift in emphasis, beings with emotions and rights are reduced to a resource for the economy and as such, can be relegated to the role similar to that of the raw ingredients. And by objectivising them, the behaviours towards them can be “adjusted” within corporate behaviours.

As I get older, even though I can see that I will (hopefully) benefit from the advances of society compared to what some of my ancestors, even just a few generations ago, had to face, I find myself increasingly becoming at odds with the Western economic model. Until a few months ago, I had worked all my life in this economic model. Leaving school on the Friday, I was in work the following Monday as an apprentice. I have worked to support myself and my family. It was “the right thing to do” and it provided “economic independence”. That was what I was told in school, by my peers and by the majority of my family.

I am very happy that my skills sets have helped tens of thousands of people over that time and that they still hold the potential to help some more before my physiology gives way to the inevitable physical demise advancing age places on the body. My role in the economic model has actually demonstrated that it was connections within society that have resulted in economic activity, but the message I see today is one where some theoretical model takes precedence over practical experience. Rigid observance of the theoretical model is what I see the majority of managerial people doing, even when experience and common sense says otherwise.

If you can get the theoretical model to work, the role of the environment can also be “better controlled for the desired outcomes”. I see this with this current UK government. Even in the face of over-whelming scientific evidence, this government, now unshackled from the objections of a coalition partner (even if that partner appears to have done very little, or has very little to show in the public arena) has now set course on relegating that environment to the role of “resource” again.

If your economic activities can be separated from the environment in pursuit of what, now-a-days, is nothing more than a set of numbers on a computer (it used to be physical resources such as gold, but I think numbers on computers have now taken the precedence) then, according to the sub-plot pedalled by the media and corporations, you can experience your own materialistic personal paradise.

And this goal is fueled by the inbuilt acceptance of separation from your environment. Because that’s how the economic model works best. Which is pretty depressing. Fortunately, there are people now beginning to offer different approaches and I am indebted to my friend Brian Taylor who, though somewhat not entirely convinced by some of the language, pointed me in the direction of some different thinking on this very subject. The piece ” Economy as Ecological livelihood” downloadable from the link, points the way, certainly for my Druidic path, to a more, less separated way forward.





Dancing with Druidry.

I’ve been actively involved with paganism for over twenty years now. It was Druidry, primarily as defined by Emma Restall Orr, that first created that first spark of interaction within me. The flame soon caught hold, but after a while, I found the lack of precisely defined parameters within that Druidry somewhat of a hinderance. So I moved away from Druidry and got involved elsewhere with a group who were more concerned with the practices of the common people rather than the Druid caste.

This worked well for me, and a notable other, it grounded both of us as far as our practices were involved. But over time, the need for precisely defined parameters has waned into something else. Precision is required for predicted outcomes but it wasn’t until I realised that these could only ever be the starting points and rarely represent the finishing point, that Druidry re-entered my life. Modern Druidry, in my experience, is an ongoing interactive process that is never static. The clue, as usual, is in nature. Lack of movement can lead to stagnation, nature favours movement, always movement. The timing is just relevant to the affected forms.

And so this frustrating thing that is both defined and yet formless, modern Druidry, continues to interact in countless ways both within and through me. At this precise moment in time, I realise that it is not the outcomes that are important to me, but my ability to host the processes this living thing called Druidry chooses to introduce to me (a very polite way of phrasing for some of these “introductions” sometimes). My Druidry is both forming me and being formed by me.

It is a dance between two living forms, each giving of themselves and reciprocating. It cannot precisely be defined to me, because that precision is only time specific, it is not form or process specific. I see a lot of “discussions” around what did, does and does not constitute Druidry, both ancient and modern. I have gone through these sort of discussions and it has been my experience that a lot of people never get past these types of discussions. The seeming lack of precisely defined parameters within modern Druidry is so at odds with our technological society that many who flirt with it, move on because they cannot recognise the flowing thing that is modern Druidry.

It will not remain static enough for them to anchor to and so they move on. In my personal practice, that particular Druid process that was coined in the 17th century as the Awen, now makes itself known through me in practical ways. In previous recent posts, I have revealed how photography has re-entered my life and how I am convinced it is one of the ways the Awen chooses to interact with and through me at this time. It is a dance it chooses to share with and through me.

It’s not strictly about the results (though I must confess to being pleasantly surprised at my own latent abilities within this art form) but more about experiencing and celebrating the dances of various interactive processes between two living forms. It is, very much, a dance of life. A celebration of two different forms combining to create shared experiences, both defining and being defined by these experiences. It is not a static thing, but an evolving thing, following the favoured route of nature. It is not outside of nature but very much a part of nature.

And because it is very much rooted within nature, this makes its presence within me all the more relevant. Now that I am beginning to better recognise the dance form it chooses when interacting with and through me.


Changes (2)

As I’m sat here writing this post, this is my first “official” day in unemployment. It’s been over twenty five years since I was temporarily in this same position and I’m working to change this current position now. For the last few weeks, I have been on “sick leave” as my arthritis begins to get itself known to me again and with impending redundancy looming, it seemed a “sensible” thing to allow myself to secumb to it this time. In this time, it has allowed me to do some traveling and rekindle a dormant passion within me. That being photography. and that passion appears to me at this time to be a new vehicle with which the Awen can interact with me in a new way. see what you think (comments welcome, click on image for better clarity).

Finnich Glen

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Grey Wagtails in the Campsies

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Isle of May, Angus

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Changes and all that…

I’ve been very quiet (for me) for a couple of months. Life has been hectic and has taken several unexpected twists over these last few weeks. First, as of yesterday (12-3-15) I was officially told I am to be made redundant at the end of this month (May 15). In thirty six years of work, since leaving school, this is the first time I have experienced this.

It’s not pleasant, but I am in a lot better place than most people who have the misfortune to experience such a thing. And it’s not neccessarily a bad thing for me. This current job has involved, typically, working between 50 and 70 hours per week ( a lot of that, admitedly, on stand by). I will be forever grateful for having been employed by my current employer, because they facilitated my move up here into Scotland. And through that job, I got to see probably about 90% of Scotland in that time.

But things move on and it looks to me like they got their numbers wrong and are having to downsize to readjust and start again. I wish them well in their endeavours, but candidly, I am not sad to be leaving. Over this last twelve months, psoriatic arthrirtis has been making itself known more and more, affecting specifically my hands. Not good for someone who hands are the primary tool for his work.

I have now attended a rheumatology clinic at our local hospital and it looks like I will be put on a Disease Modifying drug to stop it’s progress. This will involve taking a drug, probably for the rest of my life (not something I particularly relish, being the type to have avoided taking any sort of medication for my entire life). But taking that drug will obviously help my future quality of life (as well as extending the period of my life left that I can work in).

Through this redundancy, I am now in the process of securing start up funding for going into self employment. being a gas engineer, specialising in the repair and servicing of combi boilers. Through my previous (technically, still current at the time of writing) job, I am now in the best possible financial situation to be able to do this. And if my business projections are correct, my hours are going to reduce significantly. Which means this will compensate for a slight physical deteriation.

On the Druidry side, as well as being a trustee for The Druid Network, I am now also the treasurer for said TDN. Which means I am less “visible” on the TDN forum than previously as I am working now mostly in the background. I continue to run the TDN Peace ritual, primarily through the dedicated facebook page and with almost 500 likes and from information from elsewhere, i can confidently state that from a standing start last August, we now have over a thousand people joining us each full moon.

And last, but not least, a former passion has re-entered my life. As a secondary school kid, the area that our class occupied was in the subject section of “Communications” and dealt primarily with media type equipment. Specifically for me, photography.  I was “grasped” by photography and I saved up any monies earnt to buy a Zenith SLR camera. I was able to develop the film through school and then to print my own photos, which were always placed in prominent places in the school.

After toying with both compact and then bridge cameras over the last decade, I finally brought a fully blown DSLR in the form of a Nikon D3200 and have complimented the camera with a selection of other Nikon lenses. i have Adobe photo software and, the passion is gripping me again. I love what you can do with DSLR cameras and how the software can reveal the hidden detail in photos that the eye can’t neccessarily see. I have set up a facebook page, Awen Photos, as a place I can display them.

So I’ll end this post with a selection of photos that I have recently took / worked on, as an example of the sort of stuff that I am engaging in, more and more.







Re-enchantered landscapes (1)

I was recently pointed, through a series of “co-incidences”, to a Glen that, as it turned out, was only a half hour drive from where I now live. This Glen is known as Finnich Glen and the images that I saw from there were stunning. But more than that, they were a dead ringer for vision I had in a meditation from about 6 years ago. This vision was very strong and immersive, so it’s no surprise that it left a very definite imprint upon me. But I thought that it was just a vision from the “other-world”. Seeing the pictures from the Glen brought the vision back. I couldn’t believe the place actually existed.

So this last Sunday, I went there (after previously “scouting the place out” a couple of weeks back), armed with a recently brought DSLR. I knew from the previous scouting mission, access to the heart of the Glen was via a series of worn steps that were both slippery and loose in some places. The gradient was also about a 1 in 3 angle and some people had tied ropes to a tree that was growing there, to help with both the descent and ascent to and from the Glen’s heart. On Sunday, it was far too wet and slippery for me to tackle. This is the descent, along with the helpful tree. It’s difficult to get a sense of the descent, but I estimate the cliffs at that point to be about 90 feet in height… DSC_0050


So after ruling out risking damage to my aging frame, I progressed to the Glen’s exit. The water was fairly shallow and I was wearing wellingtons so I proceeded to walk up the burn. This is what met me…


Now, I have posted these pictures on social media, with lots of interest in them and this picture has had people commenting on the faces they see in this picture. I can “see” the face of, what I class, as a Druid. See if you see it too.

A bit further in and I was met by this scene..


At this point, I realised there were a series of pools that, although not deep, about thigh deep for my frame, were too deep for the standard wellingtons I was wearing. I couldn’t go any further. So I spent time there taking photos, altering settings to see what effects that had on the photos and generally “drinking in” the atmosphere.

I then wandered back and walked to the other entrance to the Glen, about 3/4 of a mile away. This is the other view from that entrance…


Being a Glen made of sandstone, the contrast between the rocks in the water and the moss and algae covered walls was striking and I managed to capture it quite well with this …



Local lore suggests the area was associated with Druids, one of the few areas in Scotland that I have come across with such a definate connection.

So all in all, this Glen has been very much in my thoughts, strikingly because of its similarity with my earlier vision and also because of the “co-incidences” of it being both close to where I live and its local connection to Druids.

I have purchased waders with the intention of walking the length of the Glen, which I will be doing in the very near future, armed with camera and other intentions of connections to be made.

To be continued….


Creativity & Robes

Back in the days of my youth, I was heavily into rock music. I was particularly into the likes of Rush, Rainbow,Status Quo, Meatloaf and the likes. I used to buy the vinyl albums and like a lot of people of my generation, the album sleeves were as much a reason to buy as was the music. Bat out of hell, Rainbow rising and the Status Quo Rocking all over the World covers were particular favourites of mine. Kids of my generation would purchase printed fabric with the album covers reproduced on them and then get some female relative to sew them on for them (doesn’t that sound particularly sexist now-a-days? It wasn’t as such, it was just how things “were” at that time where I lived).

Even at that age, I was an independent sort of “so and so” and didn’t particularly want what everyone else had, so decided I would personalise my jacket myself. This co-incided with what turned out to be the last ever holiday I spent with my parents. I was 16 and they had booked a self catering caravan in North Wales. North Wales in those days seemed to exist in another world. Un-beknown to my parents, they didn’t realise that on a sunday, nothing opened. That was particularly upsetting for my father who was accustomed to spending sunday lunch and early afternoon in the local hostelry’s. Not even the pubs opened in sunday! I remember being route marched around in an attempt to find some local business that may be open, but alas, to no avail!

We couldn’t even go swimming at the beach as it was infested with jellyfish (not that swimming in the sea with an air temperature of about 8C has ever held that much appeal to me!). But all through this, I didn’t care. I was using the time to customise my Rock jacket (the jacket of choice then was a Wrangler denim jacket, which I duly purchased and promptly dispensed with the sleeves). Whereas the Bat out of Hell and Rainbow Rising covers were works of art, I was always a realist and knew they were beyond my capabilities. But the Rocking all over the World album sleeve was definately within my range.

So before leaving on those fateful holidays, I purchased something that was to profoundly shock my parents at that time. I brought a lot of embroidery cotton and needles. I look back now with a mix of amusement and interest as to the timing and location of those holidays. There was nothing to do, as it turned out, so I had the time to sit in the caravan and reproduce the wording to my album of choice on the back of my new denim jacket. Now, for a father who wouldn’t even allow his two sons to be dried when getting out of a bath with pink towels in case the colouring of the towels had an “adverse effect” on them, I presented a sight of some concern. A gangly 16 year old, patiently spending hours in a caravan sewing on the back of a denim jacket.

This was the result (complete with large stain, which for the life of me, I can’t remember how that got there!)…



It was originally “electric blue” and silver, but with time, it now just looks two shades of grey.  Fortunately for my parents, I didn’t show any other signs of impending femininity so the whole episode was summed up by my mother with the explanation of me being at “that funny age”!

Fast forward 36 years. Last year, Pauline and I purchased some ceremonial type of robes for attending outdoor rituals. Now, I have never felt the “need” to use ceremonial attire as such. It just didn’t seem necessary in my experience and I had a definate aversion to white “bedsheets”. Don’t get me wrong, I can see how they would work for a lot of people and I’m not trying to devalue this for them, but it never really “clicked” with me. But last year, for whatever reasons, I felt the “need” for something beyond the day to day attire.

I still couldn’t bring myself to purchase anything along the white robe of style and eventually, along with a brown heavy waxed cloak (useful for a somewhat moist Scottish climate), we decided on a tabbard in the natural colouring of a light beige. We sourced a maker in Wales (very appropriate for us because of our strong links and heritage with the pre christian Brythonic religious viewpoints) and I specified a large six spoked wheel on the front of mine (linked to the Brython group symbol representing a six fold wheel as opposed to the traditional pagan eight fold wheel).

Last week however, having checked the tabbard for some reason, I noticed the wheel was just an iron on transfer sort of thing and it was coming away from the fabric. It was then that the Awen struck as I decided it needed some more personalisation. So using the iron on transfer as the template, I purchased some new embroidery cotton and sat down to do something new with it. it’s not often that something consumes me to the detriment to other things, but for the last week or so, I have been consumed with this act of creation. After about 10 hours or so, I found myself looking at this….




and a bit closer detail…


and, to be honest, I was pretty happy with. I couldn’t just leave it as a single sided thing though so I set about the other side and another ten hours or so later, another creation was birthed…


again, a bit closer detail…


probably not as asthetically sharp as the wheel, but just like me, it’s not perfect. So it is a perfect fit, in that respect, for me. There is also an underlying reason for this happening now because of very specific UPG that has been bombarding me for a couple of weeks now, but I may go into that at a later date.

Now I have to find the words to tell my parents next weekend that I may have returned to my “funny age” again!!

Druid Communion

Blogs are useful things when trying to define through the written language how you are presently experiencing the world. Sometimes though, pictures do a much better job. So, with that in mind, here are some pictures of a trip out to the Galloway Forest Pauline and I took on saturday 07/02/2015


Looking at Kirriereoch Hill and Merrick with clouds rolling over the peaks


Grey Mare Tails falls (lower)


Scottish Druid in communion


View into the Glen


Faces in the crowd


Upper falls on the Grey Mare burn


Red Deer Hide, Galloway Forest






Sunset at Cairnsmore of Fleet and surrounding area



Edit… Just in case you didn’t realise, clicking on any photo will result in a larger more detailed photo filling your screen.

Bottom up Religion

Any personal blog runs the risk of turning into an “egomaniacs charter”. What I will discuss here most definitely runs the risk of falling into that category because it is a personal disclosure, done for my own benefit to try to build some mental /spiritual cohesion at this time. I would be lying though, if I didn’t harbor a small hope that it may be of interest to others.

As an engineer by trade, I am concerned with the mechanisms that create physical change and my religious outlook is “coloured” by such thinking. If I can define the mechanisms, then that gives the experiences more credence and relevance for me. To a lot of people, this is not a concern, because the experience is more prominent and the mechanisms don’t really play much of a part in their outlook. The experience is everything. I tend to view things slightly differently.

There is an old saying that states “Sometimes you can’t see the woods for the trees”. My experience of this thing I have come to accept as my Druidry, is that the quote is most apt for me in this context.

A few days ago, when reading some comments in relation to my last blog post, I was confronted by these thoughts from a fellow TDN member…  ” Funny how you see a long and complex thread and one line leaps out and roots into your soil… The mindfulness of physicality… that stirs some thinking in me. That personal identity is intrinsically wed to, is not separate from, the physical. But when the physical is constantly dying and remaking itself on a molecular scale… how does that work? “. I am reasonably read in both physics and biology and immediately I began to consider the physical processes involved in such a thing.

But then something struck me. The scientific viewpoint creates the basis for its conclusions using the role of the impartial observer to best present evidence and make conclusions. It is a methodology proven to work within the scientific framework and is very useful in explaining processes. But it occurred to me that the detached observer hypothesis has its limitations and whereas I could consider the physical processes involved in the maintenance of the human body using that model, the model was very limited when trying to explain the “mindfulness of physicality“. The thought struck me that mindfulness may not just be a characteristic of the mind and attempting to define it through the detached observer model could only ever present a partial view.

We all know that the personal identity we have created within our bodies is one that is mostly a mental construct. It is very easy and very “natural” to consider the voice in our heads to be distinct from the body housing it. This duality has been the basis for religious thought for millenia. The idea of reincarnation is implicit, in some regards, to this idea of a duality because it suggests that though the body may perish, the “real” us will continue on in later times possibly through the inhabitation of a new physical form.

Indeed, the classical Druids propagated this idea of reincarnation and it was claimed in the classical writings that this belief would lead to acts of great, and in the views of some of the writers recording them, seemingly “crazy” acts of bravery on the battlefield because the fear of the “final” death of the body was largely negated. This position of the classical Druids is unusual because it has not been challenged in any serious way by either academia or the Neo-Druid community. If ever there was a “given” in modern Druidry, that is one of a relatively small number of the generally accepted ones.

The evidence today that we have through the various scientific studies available at this time, reveal that the human body is in a constant state of rebuilding. Everything from toe nails to the skin are constantly active because they are in a constant cycle of building and dismantling. We view our bodies as “fixed” because they are as we largely expect them to be at any one time. And this fixed status represents the foundations which our mental faculties use as their basis. We assume we think coherently because we assume we experience fixed physicality. Yet the organ most associated with the mental “us”, the brain, is not exempt from this cycle of building and dismantling. It too, is completely rebuilt every so often. Which, when we consider the “fixed” notion of the body, is actually quite disconcerting.

It is now taught that the processes of the brain that lead to mental cohesion are created by synoptic pathways that are created through the bodies physical experiences. Our habit of thinking of things in a fixed and final form means that the “logical” position, in relation to the brain, is one where we consider it ( the brain) to be like a combined central processing unit and hard drive of a computer. It can be thought of as an area of information collection, processing, distribution and storage. However, unlike a combined CPU & hard drive which is physically fixed, the constant cycle of rebuilding in it and around its environment, means that the brain is not fixed in the same way.

Because if it was, when the brain oversaw the destruction of part of its physicality through this renewal process, the information present within that area being destroyed would be lost in the destructive part of the cycle and presumably would have to be downloaded again. Thus creating a problem with a “top down” model. And to download the information, it would have to have been stored in either another area of our physical form, externally, or we would have to “relive” the experiences again to reform the pathways (groundhog day anyone?).

It occurs to me that there is no particle on Earth that has not, at some time, been recycled (unless we consider large impacts from bodies striking the Earth from space). Recycling on Earth is a natural process and is responsible for the physicality of the Earths systems and the lifeforms dependent upon them. The land we stand on is subject to Subduction meaning that even the seemingly solid Earth we stand on, has probably been recycled beneath the surface at some time in geological history. Therefore all the forms present on the Earth at this time, must also be made exclusively of materials that have been subject to natures recycling process at some time.

So, what’s the answer to this conundrum and how does it relate to the questions raised at the beginning of this post?

If everything has been subjected to the process of recycling, then it seems to me that it is more than reasonable to assume that everything also has come into contact with this thing we label as consciousness, especially if like me you hold an animist viewpoint.

I experience the Earth as a living entity therefore, again, it is not unreasonable to assume, using these experiences and that understanding, that all materials on the Earth will possess some “memory” through the result of having come into contact with consciousness. Because we sometimes take the simplistic approach that consciousness equates to lifeforms displaying physical movement, an inert object is assumed to not possess any animating life force or other such qualities.

That assumption is flawed in my opinion and now, more importantly, in my experience (and I confess as to following that simplistic logic of equating life with movement, for a good period of my life). Interactions create movement and change (a phrase I particularly like in relation to this is transmutation, within a shamanic context), they are changed by interactions with “others”. We know from the rebuilding of the brain, that there is a reasonable suggestion that information may be stored in other things, be them physical or other. Our understanding of the “I” we experience tends to paint the intellect as somehow separate from the body, something that oversees the bodies functions through the sub-conscious and that the body is subject to the will of the intellect. A tool with which the intellect experiences this thing we know as life. A “top down” model for the experience of life.

But using that model leads to the position noted in the earlier quote ” But when the physical is constantly dying and remaking itself on a molecular scale… how does that work? ” . It is assumed that the brain is directing both the destruction and rebuilding of the physical whilst maintaining our personal identity.

So let us consider an alternative, away from the brain “top down” model.

Let us consider the idea that the “new” materials that are introduced into the body on a regular basis, or even those that we may be in contact with in the external environment (noting the earlier position that nothing is actually “new”) are in possession of the “latent ability” of transferring consciousness into the new host. They are enabled through their earlier interactions with consciousness prior to the recycling process. They may retain some of the information exchanged in their previous guise, which can be either untouched or refined through the recycling process.

Therefore the intellect may be able to connect to the new materials at the beginning of the bodies recycling process, through this enhanced suitability of the introduced materials. The intellect may then be in a position to work with or transfer into, these new materials almost immediately.

It maybe that this “suitability” enables the intellect to engage with materials at this early stage without large resources within the brain having to be engaged in the transfer of intellect or information. This idea then reduces the complex model needed for the brain to do the delicate juggling act of overseeing the destruction and recycling of the physical form whilst retaining the intellect.

Therefore, it’s not the brain taking total responsibility for the transfer of the intellect (the top down model) but the interactions and conditions created by the introduced “primed” materials maybe playing a proactive part in the bodies recycling process (a bottom up process). Introduction of the materials may then lead to this thing we call mindfulness being present within the body.

It may now be the case that the brain does not have to commit large resources to the act of the retention of the intellect, because the acquisition of fresh “infused or primed” materials the body comes into contact with may provide a “primed conduit” that makes the transfer of the intellect into new materials seamless, efficient and resource reduced.

It’s a subtle change of emphasis but it fits better with both my personal experiences and understandings at this time.  It is a “bottom up” process, not a “top down” one. Constant interactions with recycled materials throughout historical time give rise to the idea that everything the materials came into contact with may have left markers in those materials.  This fits in with a very old impression I had ( I think I was about ten when the idea occurred to me) regarding how the physical form may leave “markers” at all the places we visit in the physical world.

If we are also of the opinion that the lifeforms we may experience in the non physical side of life are subject to the same laws of nature, and my own Druidry is implicit in its premise that there is nothing outside of nature, then it can only be the case that these materials may also contain markers from the non physical side of life as well. Which leads one down the path as to a possible explanation for the mechanisms that may be in play when someone experiences life “outside” of the physical norm. Our ancestors, Gods or Goddesses’ may indeed, be alive within us in a very “real” way.

The idea of bottom up consciousness fits better into my animist viewpoint and experiences because the building of mindfulness and it’s maintenance are reliant upon the materials from the Earth in providing conduits that may create a greater number of connections for consciousness to develop within the physical form. And these materials, far from being just inert materials, may actually be proactive in creating the conditions for us to experience interactions that may then go on to shape our thoughts, ideas and experiences.

This idea of mindfulness being a result of materials infused by previous interactions with consciousness and then being enhanced by natures recycling processes, is probably the “best fit” in regards to a more “complete” understanding of my Druidry at this time. Of course, this process need not be “one way” and my own physical practices within my Druidry suggest that we are capable of deliberately adding our own “flavour” to these hosting materials.

These ideas fit my experiences well at this time. And as with most things within modern Druidry, it may not actually represent anything other than a personal and / or unique expression of my own Druidic experience and practice.

It’s an idea that is going to take some further thinking. It’s entirely possible that others may have come to a similar conclusion much earlier on than I have and may be much further down this particular line of thinking than I am. I believe that I always “knew” this concept, but until now, wasn’t in a position to adequately express it through the written medium. But the more I think about this idea of a bottom up consciousness that is the root of religious experience, the more it appears to make sense to me at this minute in time.




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